My dreams that never come true :(

Dear blog , i hope you can understand what did i felt nowadays . I can feel changes about my two best friends , Mawaddah and Syamim . Since Mim home now , i'm quite lonely . I try my best to suit with the situation , but i can't ! Ohh , Allah , help me ! Besides , recently , i have a fight with Syazwan , a boy that i'm admiring on now . haha , silly girl ! Dah tahu yg dya tu hot damn , p gtai lagi . Bhaha , maybe , i'm not perfect enough for him , i thought . My dream to be a novelist never gonna be . It's impossible ! tak mungkin ! I'm too young to be a novelist . Besides , i'm having my PMR next year . I should be more concentrate on it . I've ask my teacher , my mom and my friends , " can i be a successful novelist ? " they say , nothing is impossible if we have keinginan . Kann ? yeah , i wish i could be the YOUNGEST noevelist in this century . But , to be a novelist is risky . It takes time to suit myself , maybe , while doing it , i need to find someone to publish my books , and how about the coverpage ? It needs a lot of expenses . Ohh , i wish i could be !